I've been crying a lot and the funny thing is I don't really know why.
I've been spending all this time watching all these amazing movies, and then interviews of great actors, and oscar winners... and I just wanna be there someday, so badly.
And I feel like I'm not good enough, like the possibility of it is unattainable, because it doesn't matter how much effort I put into it, I'm just kidding myself into something that I wasn't meant to do. And I am aware of how messed up this sounds but it scares me because I really do want to be an actress, I just feel like I was never meant for that world. I guess it's just anxiety.
But it all goes away when I watch a really great. And I don't know what that is supposed to mean, or why I am making such a big deal out of it but... it just matters.
Its very confusing.
Davies.
I know its scary right now...
ResponderEliminarand I'm telling you now that it always will be.
We can't escape fear, but I know that you are a confident person... no matter what you think, you shine.
If someone annoys you, trust me, you make it known... you aren't scared to have an opinion and that means a lot.
I've said this loads of times but I love your passion... and when I said that, I was talking about your passion for drama... but I'm saying now... that I also mean your passion for life and things that interest you.
You go crazy for anything drama, films and plays included. Of everyone I know, you have the best apprieciation in that area... you can see the acting for what it is.
And maybe acting isn't what you will be doing in the future... and coming to grips with that kind of knowledge is hard... I think you've always understood that though.
I think its just the button again... I keep having it every now and again too.
But trust me. I am always beside you... in everything you do.
and I know the world is scary because I'm scared too... but I was hoping we could be scared together, instead of alone.
I miss you so much, and I miss your drama craze. x
By the way, congratulations...
ResponderEliminaryou got a merit in the lamda exams (speech and drama, I talked to Mrs.Macormack)
xxx