Sometimes

This last week was one of the greatest of my life. I mean, of course it wasn´t perfect, but it was as good as perfect gets. Lily and EJ are the best friends I have ever had, and although I am incredibly sad because I miss them, I don´t feel completely lost because I know that I WILL see them again.
And my mum has been behaving weirdly. She has been soo mad lately, she never smiles anymore. She puts a lot of work on herself : she wakes up at half five in the morning everyday to go to the gym, and then works all day. She then does not stop complaining that she is tired, that she stopped working to take care of us and now youngsters get paid more than her, and she self pities so much... And I am sorry but no one asked her to stop working. No one asks her to do everything she does everyday. Therefore she shouldnt blame it on everyone else. It is not my fault. I just wish she could be proud of the sacrifice she did for us. And I just wish that she could relax.
Sometimes I feel like less of the person she raised me to be. And it frustrates me because I wanna make her proud but somehow me experimenting breaks the boundaries.
I miss her just being my mum.