Mum I really wish you could just love me for who I am. I'm sorry if I disappoint you when I eat waffles or shit like that but I am 16 years old. I wanna eat these things while my body can still burn them. I'm sorry I'm not the perfect skinny girl you hoped for. I'm sorry I'm not like you. But I don't wanna have to go through another eating disorder in order to build a closer to relationship to you. It's not fair. Sometimes I feel like you won't love me if I gain weight.