catching up

Gosh its been a long time... loads of things have been going on.. well muck up day, alton towers and that was pretty cool.
And today my little sister got into an argument with this girl.. she reminds me so much of me when i was younger.. so rebellious.. i just hope i can help her become a better person, because this place has done so much for me.
Anyway i also told my mum about the piercing, and she freaked out a bit at first but was cool with it.. felt good to be accepted. I'm glad I am close enough to tell her what i do, even if it's done and there is no way to change it.
I've started watching one tree hill again.. that series makes me feel like myself so much.. makes me wanna sketch again, and makes me wanna look forward to the future, you know make my life matter. I know it sounds stupid how a tv series can make a difference, but to me it does..
And I've realised who my friends are, and most importantly I know who I am now.. havent really figured myself out yet, but I know who I am. Its a start.
I've also been considering options for next year.. I read this thing today that gemini are keen to have many careers in their lives because they just wanna try it everything. Thats so me. I just dont wanna live an empty life.. I wanna travel, do things see things, feel things... my life is pretty good you know.. guess i'm just looking for something to make it great. Guess if I do stupid stuff its because I am scared of letting that go. But I don't wanna be short from the person that my mum raised me to be.
And I dont wanna die without having made a difference.
Plus I have discovered that I really wanna have Peyton's room.. it's amazing. And if I have kids I wanna name them either jack or lucas or brooke or peyton :)
Anyway I should probably leave since this is getting longer than usual.. plus i'm starting to feel like this is my diary.

Davies.