This is "for bloggers who put their heart on display as they write from the depths of their soul." You write 10 honest things about yourself that are not common knowledge and then you pass it on to 6 fellow bloggers that touch your heart by the honesty and sincerity they give with each post.

Ok so here it goes. By the way this really sucks...too much thinking!

1) I am scared. I get scared a lot. I am scared of not being able to say I love to someone sincerely, because I have a special skill to mess up relationships. I am scared of leaving England. I am scared of forgetting who I am and coming back to being the bitch I used to be. I am scared of not being good enough. I am scared of my sister being better. I am scared of deceiving myself, of failing my dreams. I am scared of making the wrong decision, and of letting the people I love down. I am scared that my parents might divorce. I am scared some of my friends don't love me because of who I really am. I am scared of spiders too.

2) I don't actually believe in cynicism. I think it is much easier to be cynic than to be creative and to love life with all its imperfections.

3) I don't read normal books. I have only been reading drama books for the last two years.

4) Since I was a kid, everytime I go to the bathroom I stare at myself in the mirror and say phrases, they don't make any sense but I imagine I am different people. I remember I could spend hours just staring, and crying, and laughing, and singing. It brought that extra bit of drama to my life. Made me feel immortal. Of course at that time I could not even spell the word acting.

5) I used to hate blood. Just could not deal with it. Until recently, my grandma hurt herself and I had to help her. Afterward, I felt abnormally useful. Like I could do anything I want. Was pretty cool. That's where the surgeon bit comes in xd.

6) In school, when I was a little kid I was never the pretty one, or the cool one. I was a nerd. I was practically invisible. Was not cool.

7) The best two pieces of advice I have ever gotten from someone were : "Don't let anyone get their hands on you" from my mum, and "never ever give up on your dreams, if you fail try again" from my grandma. Oh and "keep moving forward, don't give a shit about what anyone thinks, just keep moving forward and do what you have to do, for you" from johnny depp.

8) I had an eating disorder a few months ago. Still go to a pshycologist, but it was the most terrifying experience of my life.

9) The day I quit smoking and I realised I could be someone, not something, was the most liberating day of my life.

10) I often self-pity myself too much. My good friend Anne Marie made me see that. I try not to.

I pass it on to John for making sense my world through her words.

Love,


Davies.